Saturday, November 29, 2008

just, not today.

I've been shopping for the past 2 days, with my mum, sis & I. I bought nothing. I've been trying to find shoes/sneakers. but once I've found it, they do not have my size. >:( it's either too tight or too loose. argh. :( and I totally forgotten what I wanted to blog about. shit?

amos, please be okay. :( love you.



And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be okay,
yeah I try to believe you, but I don't
When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
it's a different day, tomorrow,

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do, just don't
Give me a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
tomorrow its a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
maybe tomorrow
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be okay,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...
Tomorrow... it may change

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

and I wanna believe you, when you tell me that it'll be okay, I tried to believe you, but I don't.

met Amos this afternoon and went lunch with my sister & her friend at popeyes, again. andd, I still wish I had Literature. :( buttt, everything happens for a reason, I guess. lalala. :)

Monday, November 24, 2008

find yourself, cause I can't find you, be yourself, who are you?
















my mum flew off yesterday morning, and I'm starting to miss her quite a bit already :x

okay, I'm hooked onto the book, though I still don't read that fast, but who cares. it's like I have all the time in the worldy. :) so I can read as slowly. I can't wait to watch twilight. and I guess after I finish reading the book, I'll watch it online and then when it comes out, I'll watch it in the theatres. can't wait. ha. I've been sleeping late these days and waking up early :( I've got a phone call from my school today saying that the Literature class isn't big enough. dammit. so I'm appealing for History. ah well :( it's alrightyy :D :D

okay, I miss youuu amosey D:

Thursday, November 20, 2008

what's my age again?

today was a day. met my mum and sis at marina square as my sister had to highlight her hair 'cause her prom is coming? I don't know. I want it too. it's not fair. I finally bought twilight. okay, abit slow, but who cares. I've been listening to blink 182 songs, again.

I took her out, it was a friday night
I wore cologne, to get the feeling right
we started making out,
and she took off my pants.
but then I turn on the tv.
and that's about the time she walked away from me.
nobody likes you when you're 23
and are still more amused by tv shows.
what the hell is A.D.D?
my friend said I should act my age.
what's my age again?
what's my age again?

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

why so serious?

what a nice day. so, I've got the subject combinations I want, praise jesus. I'm not gonna blog about what I did for the day anymore but more of how I feel. okay, so, I'm feeling, moody now. I can't wait for school to start. and sadly, I'm not in the same class as gabriel & amos. how sad. I was so happy this morning. praise jesus, thank you daddy. you did it all. if it weren't for you, I don't think I'd get the subjects I want. and bloody hell, I forgot what lyrics I was in love with.
--
wow. I just remembered. yay? I think people are wierd. in a bad way. I don't know if there's a good way. but, people are wierd. in a bad way. some. I don't know how to describe some people's way of behaving, but I kinda, hate it. a lot. and I feel so apart(lol), not apart, but. I don't know. ha. who cares.




You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

Monday, November 17, 2008

& I don't know how I'll feel.

I can't wait to see her fall apart. I can't wait to see her heart break into bits and pieces. I can't wait to see her cry. I just can't wait.

I hate excuses. I hate them.
I feel angry.
I feel frustrated.
I guess today isn't a very good day.
I'm gonna sleep silently and not let anyone know.
until tmr, I'll be awake to get my results.
and tmr will be another day of korean drama.
I'm gonna read until I fall asleep and not know that I'm asleep
goodnight, goodbye and so long.
I sound so suicidal, but I'm so not okay.
I'm a happy girl.
oh, and I guess your promises are just,
empty.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

christmas is coming.

helllo. met cass & esther and then had lunch then headed to clarke quay to slack at starbucks. I forgot to bring my book to read. I wanna read twilight and the other series. rawr. :( okay I'm abit laggy, I know some had red until new moon already. ahhaha, but I want. haha went to suntec and home with amos. :) lublub. I'm starting to miss you, alot. :( oh well.. as long as I have you. HAHA, whatever :D

It's Christmas time again
It's time to be nice to the people you can't stand all year
I'm growing tired of all this Christmas cheer
You people scare me
Please stay away from my home
If you don't wanna get beat down
Just leave the presents and then leave me alone.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

my whole life, I place in your hands.

today, dare. Amos came over for breakfast before we set off to suntec.(: you were extremely quiet today D: okay. so met the usual 4 today. I don't really feel like going service. maybe I shouldn't. right? I feel so don't have the feel for going. so no service for me tmr :) hung out at sky garden after dare and then went to coffee beans and walked to city hall with cass and went home with amos. :) you're okay, but you're not. :( love you <3

Lights out,
I still hear the rain,
These images that fill my head,
Now keep my fingers from making mistakes,
Tell my voice what it takes,
To speak up, speak up,
And keep my conscience clean when I wake.


Don't make this easy,
I want you to mean it, Jasey.
(say you'll mean it)
You're dressed to kill, I'm calling you out,
(don't waste your time on me)


Now there's an aching in my back;
A stabbing pain that says I lack,
The common sense and confidence,
To bring an end to promises,
That I make in times of desperate conversation,
Hoping my night could be better than this in the end.
Just say when.


Don't make this easy,
I want you to mean it, Jasey.
(say you'll mean it)
You're dressed to kill, I'm calling you out,
(don't waste your time on me)


I've never told a lie,
And that makes me a liar,
I've never made a bet,
But we gamble in desire,
I've never lit a match,
With intent to start a fire,
But recently the flames,
Are getting out of control.


Call me a name,
Kill me with words,

Forget about me,
It's what I deserve,
I was your chance,
To get out of this town,
But I ditched the car,
And left you to,


Wait outside,
I hope the air will serve to remind you,
That my heart is as cold as the clouds of your breath,
And my words are as timed as the beating in my chest.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Jasey rae



fatty tongue

shaking


crazy.

I like.
eeeeeeeeeeee.

act cute

and again. :p

your back not sexy.


monkey

today was a nice day with my sister and amos. :) had popeye's for lunch but felt unwell after that. D: whywhywhywhy. HAHA, morgan. haahah, these are only some of the photos. :p 'cause I'm really confused whether I send it or not. :p so after I met amos, I headed off the meet tricia at dhoby.

we walked to bugis, though I didn't feel tired at that time, my calves are aching like crap now. :( grawr? ahhaha. we had a nice talk from dhoby to bugis and also at Haji Lane. we went to sit and have a drink & ice cream. and took photos abit. like abit. and saw this freaky place. ahhahaha and took photo but delete in the end. :p so we went back to bugis and had finger food, old chang keee. :) so nice nice. but my throat hurts abit. soon, it was already 8:oopm and I had to go 'cause I CAN'T MISS MY KOREAN DRAMA.

I met amos again to go back tgt. and I missed like half an hour of the show. but I came back at the right time 'cause it was the most exciting part. :D hahah. the guy is so handsome. :o lublub. anyway, today was a really enjoyable day. <3

Monday, November 10, 2008

ps. I will always love you

alright, how did I get through last night? by watching ps I love you. yay. it was so nice. I loved the song. I love you till the end. the show is so nice. I feel like I can watch it over & over again. how nice :)

love you till the end
I just want to see you, when you're all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I cant escape, I love you till the end
I just want to tell you nothing
You dont want to hear
All I want is for you to say
Why dont you just take me
Where Ive never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath

I love you till the end

I just want to be there
When we're caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry
I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
I'm lost for words don't tell me
All I can say, I love you till the end

RAWR

"I WISH YOU WERE HER",
YOU LEFT OUT THE 'E'
YOU LEFT WITHOUT ME.
AND NOW YOU'RE SOMEWHERE OUT THERE
WITH A BITCH, SLUT, PSYCHO BABE
I HATE YOU, WHY ARE GUYS SO LAME.

NOW IS THE DAMN RIGHT TIME TO BLOG WHILE LISTENING TO AVRIL LAVIGNE'S SONG. D:< I FEEL SO RAWR. SO RAWR. DAMN RAWR. FUCKING RAWR. I'M SO FRUSTRATED, DAMN FRUSTRATED. I HATE IT. I HATE IT. I FREAKING HATE IT. I WANNA DO SOMETHING TO DISTRACT MYSELF FROM EVERYTHING NOW. BUT I DON'T HAVE AN ERASER. DON'T ASK WHY. ARGH. I FEELEEEAPJBNKJDSVAJKVBHAS. I FEEL LIKE SMASHING SOMETHING. OKAY, NOT SO. BUT I JUST CAN'T DESCRIBE WHAT I'M FEELING NOW. I DON'T FEEL LIKE SLEEPING, AT ALL. I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE MOOD. THE DAMN MOOD.
scream my lungs out, help.

I don't feel together.

some shit.

today is day........................................................ nothing! yay. it's exactly 12:00 AM. my teeth hurts, dental today, again. I kinda hate the rubber smell now. I hate blogging, for now. so annoying. bye.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

stupid retarded assholes.

alright, today was a.... okay day. wasn't very good, but still okay. I wonder why people wanna control other people's life. like I mean, seriously, what's wrong? don't you have a life? all you wanna do is to ruin other's life. if you ever come to me, kcslaovdsjdvnbhsda D:< okay. HAHA. alright, drop subject. it kinda agitates me. hahaaa. so, next sunday we'll all be going forth! :D dinner at clarke quayyyyyyyy. WHOOOOO. :D it's been a long time since pz hang out together. :) so I guess I won't be going dare anymore after pz graduates. I don't see the point of going dare anymore. after all, the coaches are pretty screwed, so, go for f? I know going dare is for god, yes I do go church for god, but dare is so screwed, so why even bother? :) I think this camp's also gonna suck. so going sunday service is good enough I guess. and I'm preparing myself in case some shit happens. hur, though I don't really want anything to happen. so today after dinner at pepper lunch, waited for Amos and then went homey with him :) moodiest day of all the days that we were together. :( don't really know what exactly is going through your mind, but I hope you're alright. :) <3

Saturday, November 8, 2008

just walk away

wheeeeee. tmr's service and finally get to see pz :D it feels like forever since I saw them. :( so o's end this week and it'll be party with them :D and I needa get a manicure before I'm fed up with my long nails and cut it. I'm not gonna wait for my sister as I need to wait for 2 weeks. so, no. suddenly in love with knock 'em out again. and littlest things too. how?! okay it's good. :D anyway, I went to print photos of pz and my sister and I. yay. :D and when to the Prime Society. the ribs was sooooo good. brownies is <3. and the wine was so goodddd. the champagne tooooooooo. I want more! :( but I peed alot after that. D: and I was supposed to watch the ten commandments show part 2 today, at 9pm and I completely forgot about it. D: and missed 50 minutes of the show, but at least I still got to watch it. yay :D so Cass and I are talking about oldies. it's sadder than sad. ahahahhahaa. so... sad.

Friday, November 7, 2008

I have you in my heart, no distance to keep me apart, love.




I like this picture alot. this is like my masterpiece. HAHAHA. okay, not masterpiece but the best one I've ever drawn. hahahhaha, but it looks kinda ugly though :x and I love my organiser. It's so cool. :) and there's so many new york printed on the book. and it reminds me of new york. how sad. I wanna go there again! I wanna enjoy myself to the fullest. unlike last time D: I was only primary 6 then, what can you expect! :@ and the organiser made me abit broke and my sister cheated my money. :((( but at least I've got my organiser :D better than my previous one, though it's filled with love and care, not. alrighty, I'm off.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

you put my picture faced down.

rawrrr. I'm at starbucks now. andddddd, I want that organiser from Artbox :(((((((( and my sistre doesn't wanna sponser me $10. it's $20. and I don't wanna spend so much as I wanna start saving. butttttttttttttttttt, I really want that organiser :(((((( I WANT. I WANTTTTT. though I just got my notebook. but that's different. I want an organiser. my other organiser is like last year's. and it's so e e e emo. and I want a new one. A BRAND NEW ONE. :(((((((((((( I WANTTTTTTTTTTTT! I WANT IT.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

you are my only one.

hello. served at suntec today, met Amos before that. :) and then served till 6 and my mum fetched us home :D and today for the first time in my life, I slept till 12 noon. :o I wonder how I did that. I stunned at my clock. LOL. hahahhahaa, yay. :)

I count the steps the distance to
The time when it was me and you is so far gone
Another face another friend
Another place another end but I'll hang on
It's a winding road, it's a long way home
So don't wait for someone to tell you it's too late
Cuz these are the best days
There's always something tomorrow
So I say let's make the best of tonight
Yeah let's make the best of tonight
Here comes the rest of our lives

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

'cause these are the best days (:

hello, today was a day out with Amos to celebrate his birthday :D thanks for the movie & lunch <3 high school musical 3 was like wth? it's so not nice :( it's so boring. I can't wait for twilight to come out. hahahhaha. maybe I should read the book first. I wanna read 'cause my english is so sucky already. anyway, went to some half restaurant for lunch. milk tea didn't give me headache :D I loved the straw. so I felt really happy today :D thanks for everything today AAAAAAAAAAAAAA :D loveeee.

don't be gay, it's your birthday :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVEDY AMOSEY. <3
haha I spent the first second with you :D it turned 12 and I was like happy birthday? hahahaha :D so, love you. :)

Monday, November 3, 2008

you pms like a bitch, I would know.





hello. It's been quite a while :) 'cause I'm quite lazy to blog these few days. haha. so hols has been quite boring without pz. :( but still alright :D so Amos came just now. and had a really nice time :) and A levels has started. :o so fast. okay, I'm having a bit of headache, so bye :)

Sunday, November 2, 2008

you hold, the universe.



all I need is you lord.
you hold the universe.
you hold everyone on earth
you hold the universe.